Ok, so I lied.....

In my last post I talked about how I was going to put both boys in daycare. I lied. Well, not really.....I changed my mind. I just can't do it. At least not until I give my original plan a shot. It very well may work, and I'm crossing my fingers and toes that it does. I really want to spend the summer with my boys!

Here's the 2 week trial plan:
I will work in the mornings 5:30-9:30 (a little longer if possible, but at least until 9:30) then I'll work another 2 hours in the evening after dinner or after the boys are in bed. On days when we don't have plans and the boys are cooperative, I will try to work those couple of hours then so I don't have to work every night.
The best part about this is that I'll get to spend the summer with my boys and still work. I'd like to increase my hours while doing this too. I'm going to try to work a minimum of 30 hours, and possibly try for 35. If I'm able to pull this off, it will be a great benefit to us all. I won't have to work 40 hours in order to pay for daycare and I'll get great quality time with my boys; plus I can make a little extra$$. Walker only gets 2 months off during the summer, and I want us to enjoy it together! I'm hoping that when I have meetings, I can get PaPaw and Nana, Ninny or Erika to help out
I'm thinking of all the great things we'll be able to do this summer. Lots of time outside and in the water. We're lucky to have a newly renovated city pool, great parks, plus the lake and river close by which are all inexpensive or free.
So, that's the plan at this point. I really hope it works; it'll break my heart if it doesn't.

What do you think? Is it possible to make this work, or am I just delaying the inevitable? Honest opinions, please.

Changes.....

Well, as most of you know I work part time from home. I actually didn't think my job would last as long as it has, so I'm very thankful to my company for keeping me around after our move. (The company is in Nashville, and we moved 2.5hrs away.)It was time for me to make a decision.....it has been made. It has become increasingly difficult for me to work to my fullest ability with Wyatt home with me. School will be out for the summer soon, so Walker will be home too....what to do. I need to work, but I can't do it with the boys home with me. So, we made the decision to put the boys in daycare. Walker will actually be in "Day Camp", but they will be at the same place.
I am really sad to not spend the summer with the boys, but like I told Randy, I can either do this or get fired. It's too hard to focus anymore. It was a difficult decision that I am still accepting. It will be hard to take Wyatt to daycare for 8 hours a day...well, he'll actually be there about 8.5 hours a day. It makes me sad. But, I also remind myself that I have been able to spend much more time with him than a lot of working moms do, so I'm very lucky that way.
I think Walker will really enjoy day camp. They will go on field trips every week and do lots of fun things all summer long.
My schedule will still be very flexible, so I can still take time during the summer to do things with the boys.
I'm looking forward to working full time again. Maybe I'll even get to travel to Nashville from time to time again.

Ok, with all that said, let's get to some long overdue pictures that were taken over the past couple of weeks.

Erika playing the Wii with Wyatt watching

Walker (home from school sick) playing the Wii with Wyatt watching

First bite of squash

He seemed to like what he kept in his mouth!Closing Ceremonies....Walker got his trophey

The team with their trophies.

Walker was in a mood by the time it was over and wouldn't let me take his picture with his trophey, so I took one of Randy with it!

Family Fun Day at BPS

I wonder.....

.....How can I score a free family vacation? I'm not picky, anyplace in a hotel for a few days would be great. Disney would be ideal, but I wouldn't turn down Gatlinburg, Gulf Shores, Atlanta, Savannah.... How did this thought come about, you ask? During one of the rare quiet moments I get to myself, I flipped through a baby mag that had ideas for fam vaca's on the cheap, I thought to myself how much I'd like to get away for a long weekend...just me, hubby and the boys. Then I thought about all the free vaca giveaways you see on tv--how is it that I can't win one? I keep waiting on Regis and Kelly to call me for a trivia question in hopes of winning one of their great wheel vacations...but alas, it has yet to happen.

.....How I can feel so unfulfilled in my job when I get to live the dream of working part-time, from home and keep my baby home with me? People think I'm crazy to want to work full-time in an office again, but I miss the daily interaction with adults. I miss talking to people other than family members on a regular basis. I miss wearing dress clothes and heels on occasion for a big meeting or luncheon. I miss getting out of the house for longer than just to take Walker to school and pick him up during the week. And, I admit, I miss the chit-chat and gossip around the coffee machine. The best parts of my job I don't get to do anymore b/c I work from home and out of town from the company. But I look at my baby and the time I get to spend with Walker at school, and think that I'm just being selfish...I just need to suck it up. I work for a fabulous company, I'm just bored and I miss people! Is that wrong?

.......How I got so lucky to have a great husband and 2 great boys. I'm so looking forward to going out for breakfast on Mother's Day and not counting points!! Here's my early Mother's Day present I received (a week early). :)

I Love It!!!

Well, May 2nd, 2009 has arrived. It is a sacred day in our home, known as WALKER'S BIRTHDAY!!!! :)

6 years ago on May 1st, 2003 I received a call at work from Walker's birth-mother telling me that her doctor was putting her in the hospital "right now" for an induction! This was around 2pm. I was so scared, excited, nervous, just a bundle of emotions. 18 hours later, we arrived in Rapid City, SD; checked into our hotel, took a shower, settled the dogs into their temporary home, and headed to the hospital to meet our baby boy for the first time. I get chills still when I think about it. Walker was a mere 5 hours old when we first saw him. He was perfect in every way, and still is no matter how much he drives us crazy :)

Now, this baby of ours is 6 years old. Where has the time gone? How has my baby grown so much? How can I slow him down so I can enjoy every second of him?

Ok, I'm done with the mushy, sentimental stuff now...I can't go on about it any more or I'll be bawling for sure!

The Party:

We had a change of venue due to rain. Thanks to my in-laws for allowing us to take over with wild and crazy little boys and a couple of sweet little girls and a gaggle of parents, grandparents, cousins, etc. It was fun, even if the rain made us stay inside.

The Cake:

My oven decide to cook unevenly and burned the bottom of half of the cake. I won't even begin to type what I said and thought for fear of being banned from Blogger! So, I called up trusty ole Wally World to save my cake burning butt....I requested a 1/2 sheet cake, yellow, white icing and no decorations at all. FYI: Walmart charges the same amount for a cake whether it's decorated or not. Humf! Oh, well....do what you gotta do for your kids. So, I get the cake decorated as best I can. Not exactly what I had envisioned, but Walker liked it and that's all that counts.

The Gifts:

So, the big hit was the Star Wars Voice Changer. But, you ask, what about he Wii you were getting him? Oh, he got it. We saved it for last because it was the "big finale" of the gifts, right--WRONG! Oh, he was excited about it, but not near as excited about the voice changer helmet. :) Never fails, always out done no matter how big you go! LOL

The Thanks:

Thank you to all our friends and family who came to Walker's party....you braved rainy weather to come and we thank you for it. Thank you to all who gave him gifts.....they weren't necessary, but very much appreciated and he's playing with them all. Walker spent Sunday shopping with his gift cards and cash to get even more games and toys.

I'd also like to throw out a special thanks to my mom who helped me with the shopping and helped Randy and I get things coordinated for the last minute changes because of the weather.

The Dinner:

The festivities didn't end with the party...oh, no! Not in our family!! It's an all day event! We went to Red Robin for Walker's birthday dinner. The four of us, my brother and his crew, my mom & sister, my dad and step-mom, my MIL & FIL, and my grandparents went...it was a great way to end the day.

The award for longest distance traveled goes to my brother and his family, traveling all the way from Ft. Rucker, AL.....and in 2nd, my dad and step-mom driving in from Nashville....if I have to give a 3rd, it would have to go to Renee, Mike and Brit coming from Lookout Mtn :)

No, it's not a Military Ball picture....my brother took his lovely wife out for a special birthday dinner on Friday, May 1st. We like to keep birthdays close in our family, just makes things more interesting :)

Misc. Pics:

I think that about covers it.

Have a wonderful day!